THE JOURNEY~

It's been a year, I've come to NZ for a year!! Just can't believe at how fast time is passing by~ But I would reckon this as one of the best chapters in my life, a chapter which involves a drastic change and transforms me into who I am today. Very very memorable indeed, the best part is, this favourite chapter of mine hasn't ended yet:) Really looking forward to accepting more challenges and creating more fond memories in the coming 1.5 years.

I am still the very same person, but the only difference now is I've started to know myself better and equipped myself with a few more skills which I used to think was a far-fetched dream. Now,  I see everything as an opportunity for me to get closer to my goal instead of a barrier. Though I can't deny the fact that there are always obstacles along this journey, I feel that sometimes these are just a stepping stone to the pinnacle of our life. 

I'm really glad to have this golden opportunity to get to know more about myself. This is something very crucial, at least for me. The dishes that I can cook now prove that I can do anything as long as I give it a try, it may not succeed during the first attempt, but the more you try, the closer you are into getting something perfect. Becoming perfect is not the main point here, but rather the emphasis is placed on whether or not you are allowing yourself to improve. 

Sometimes, life may throw us an exceptionally sour lemon which can turn our life into a really acidic state, even to the extent that it takes uncountable attempts or an overextended period of time in order for a neutral point to be reached. It is definitely not nice to live in such condition, nobody ever wants to get to such "pH" I am sure. Having said that, I would regard one of my experiences in life close to such state. When it happened to me, I knew that I couldn't just give up like this, that's way too early! The scars left behind affected me tremendously, be it physically or mentally, I just got to inject myself with a lot more courage despite of how much I was feeling deep inside. I was very determined, for the first time to return to the long-awaited "neutral point", otherwise I knew I would regret.

I could be my only enemy sometimes and in fact most of the times, as no one else except for myself cared so much about the issue. Probably I had set my expectations in my life a little too high, but I knew that I needed to make a change, in order to get out of that darkest moment. Thus, I did. I was glad that I gave it a try. 

I just found it hard whenever I wanted to express my inner feelings. Most of the time, I held on to that pillar of strength I gave myself so relentlessly that I wouldn't release it until I felt the need to. As long as that avenue could help me sail through the stormy sea, it's worth trying!

Sorry for such sentimental post, just wanted to use some words to describe what I felt at that juncture of time. I am writing all these down because I think this could be the right time and also a checkpoint before I continue even further along the path. Gladly to say that I am feeling a lot better than when I first started on this journey, I am also doing this to remind myself how much I've gone through and progressed to where I'm standing today. I want to thank the courageous 'ME' at that time and also all the people who were involved in my journey, you may or may not know it, but most importantly I know who you are. 

The journey hasn't ended yet, much more that I want to encapsulate in this wonderful journey. A journey which leads to a meaningful life, filled with lots love and happiness ! :)



  

A mini heart to heart talk:)

A cover by me, there's still much more to improve, and some flaws here and there, I could hear that, but just don't care for now LOL :P Quite bad actually, that's why I don't like to do recording early in the morning :(

I randomly selected this song and found it quite nice :) Could have done it better if I practice more xP Why didn't I? Hmmm....

Enjoy listening if you like it, if not is alright!

There comes a time when some sentimental moments creep in....

Two months from now, I will be in another country, a place which I'm totally not familiar with. However, I will learn to be more independent, and hopefully can adapt to the new environment as fast as possible. 

Are you looking forward for that? It will be YES and NO.Yes is because it's gonna be a new place for me to explore. No!! because I'm definitely gonna miss home like crazy, but I'm getting myself ready for that!

Hereby, I would also like to express my heartfelt gratitude to people who have made significant changes in my life and also to those who love me as much as I love them. Thank you for always being there, for supporting me, loving me, lending me a hand when I need it most. I really appreciate it!! Just like the title of this song, I wanna say 愛你! plus 们 means I love all of YOU!!!:DDDD

A red carpet affair~

Just last week, I attended the very first IMU dental graduation ball. It was named "graduation ball" mainly because the first batch of dental students are graduating soon, not me~ Actually that grad ball was specially dedicated to our seniors and the rest of us (juniors) just joined in to celebrate such memorable occasion.

The committee had put in a lot of effort in making this grad ball a success, and glad that it turned out to be awesome I would say, since it was merely our first time organizing such event. 

I was really happy to see most of my dental batch mates after not seeing them for nearly a month. It was also a great time to mingle around with all the other dental students, but most of my times were spent with batch mates taking lots of pictures, coz there were just too many props to play with, couldn't resist!XD

Us being the playful yet super cool batch (:DT111)

A more professional looking group picture:)

All in all, it's an event worth having every year if possible :) I personally enjoyed it very much, hope the others too! Credits to Jie Cong for all the nice pictures!! 
  
With the blink of an eye, I am already a third year dental student, time passes really fast isn't it?? still remember how I was when I just started my course, everything to me was so new and I always got fascinated so easily with the things I saw. Now it's already my last semester in IMU, just hope to spend the last semester here with even more fond memories that I can reminisce about in the future. Really happy to be part of DT111:) Now I'm eagerly anticipating the upcoming class trip, like finally there's one, lol:D & I'm sure more to come^^

A year filled with challenges!

Time really flies, just a few more days this year is going to end. This is a pretty special year to me as the challenges I received in this one year were much more compared to the previous years.

The challenges which I mentioned earlier on were not merely academic wise, but also included many other aspects. All the things I had been through had definitely made me a tougher and more determined person. Though there were times when I felt really down due to various reasons, still I was happy that I did not give up in the middle of the process, no matter what.

The main focus for this year was no doubt the major exams which I'd just been through, the studying part was just crazy! Partly due to studying at the very last minute, and the things to cover were just too much!! Thinking back on how I used to study from morning to night, it felt as though I had no life, the first thing I touched after waking up and the last thing I touched before sleeping were NOTES!! So sick of seeing them now!!

I gotta thank god that I passed the exams, really thankful that I had successfully been through my second year. It wasn't easy for me. And I was happy that I had supportive friends and family who were being really considerate during my most "lifeless" time of life.

One thing about me is I just can't take too much of stress, I can handle it mentally but not physically. Somehow stress is just something that is unavoidable during exams. I know myself too well that I could even predict what would come next when I was under tremendous stress.

But I just had to study for exams no matter what sorts of things would happen to me, sometimes sacrifices had to be made, though the consequences may take really long to heal. I knew I just got to keep on motivating myself. No matter what I was feeling inside, I made sure I put a smile on the outside, though some people could tell that it wasn't genuine. I just dislike telling people how upset I felt at that time, because it would only make matters worse. Thus, I chose to put them aside until exams ended.

I knew who were the people who could read me even when I didn't utter a single word to them, here I would also like to thank these people for being so understanding.(if you ever see this:P) When I bottled things up, of course it wouldn't feel good, but I was just looking for a right time to throw them out. 

One thing I had come to realize especially in this year is if you ever have any problems, even as tiny as a sesame seed, never overlook them, as they all have the potential of becoming a difficult problem later on. Or if you have any thoughts in mind, don't let it just linger at the back of your mind, but at least take some actions. That way you are at least one step closer in achieving yours dreams! 

With that, I can foresee what my new year resolutions will be. Still remember I had two wishes early this year! One of them just came true, and another one is yet to come true, but I will fervently look forward to the arrival of this day!:D Don't let me wait for me too long please :) But I will definitely WAIT(because I've put in so much effort) :)

 


 

Just because I care~

I still can't accept it, I actually wish to just stay at home until I think it's what I consider as OKAY. But is pretty hard, since there are times where you just have to go out, like seriously reluctant to but still I will get into my car and drive to the destination. 

I rather just stay in my comfort zone than getting myself into a difficult situation if there's no need or no important occasion to go out. I will definitely not give up on myself just that this time round I think I need some time to be at home. If you wanna find me, most of the time the only place you can see me is my house! All due to personal reasons and not any serious causes. Hopefully this won't last for long:)

During this period of time, I will feed myself a lot of food (preferably healthy ones), entertain myself with lots of tv shows and ensure myself getting sufficient amount of sleep, so see you when I see you, and for sure I will be seeing people tomorrow coz it's a MUST! till then~

Time to ENJOY!~

Any special plans for holidays ?? Hmm not really for the time being. Planning to just take this break  to really rest well and spend it well with all my dear family and friends. Unless there are some impromptu plans coming out, not surprised!:P

Gonna think of more things to do just to keep myself fully occupied, especially those things which I like to do but couldn't do it when I was busy :)

Even though the first day of my holidays was purely spent at home except for dinner, I still felt very happy for the simple yet carefree moments that I had, regardless of what I was doing.

Did really stupid things like playing some seemingly childish yet super fun games with sis, playing so crazily that I had definitely lost my self-image, hahahaha!!! Can't bother so much when I was trying so badly to win, though there was only one opponent!

One day well spent, more to come, and more to anticipate before the big day comes! XD

A complicated & dreadful period of time~

When studying for exams, it is the most stressful time of all. But at the same time, this is also the time I learn the most, since now there's a REASON to study. 

You will feel happy when you've finally understood something. But the next moment, you will get panic-stricken when you realize that there isn't enough time to study the remaining notes. All kinds of feelings will just be encapsulated during this duration of time, such as guilt (after watching too much of tv), nervousness(when exam is the next day), loneliness (when studying alone), so on and so forth.

I don't find it useful to complain about how dreadful exams appear to be, because it doesn't make me feel any better. In fact, after complaining, I feel even more stressed. Every day, I am trying new method with the hope that I can study better as I get bored pretty easily .

Hopefully I can continue to work hard in spite of the time constraints. I feel rather tired of what I'm doing sometimes, but I know I just have to do it no matter what. Stop procrastinating and slacking for the remaining time left. Note to myself! 

Must not give up kay!!!!!!!!! :) Remember holidays are coming in a months' time too!

There's a limit to everything we do~

Recently, I don't feel quite good about certain things. I don't know if it is alright or I should have stopped it from happening right from the beginning. 

My biggest weakness is- I'll feel bad after saying NO to people, especially to a friend or family member. But whenever I spotted that something is not right, I will make or push myself to say a big NO to either him or her. That's still okay, but the effect after that is the worst part of all.

Sometimes I may feel guilty for no good reasons, this is really torturing and I really dislike this. If I were to face this kinda situations in the past, I would just unwillingly say YES (if it's not something too serious), but not for now.

Something about me is that I just dislike the feeling of being forced to do something, I dislike it when something is done for untoward purposes. I tend to stay away from all these once I detected one. 

I think is bad to keep those uneasy feelings to myself, hence writing this out. All I can say is I think I'm just kinda bad when handling some friendship or relationship problems.Currently, there's nothing happening, just a premonition that something is gonna happen if i don't do something about it.

You have a lot more things to do. WORK HARD!!!!

When you realize....

You know what, just keep your mouth shut, then the world will be much peaceful? WHO? YOU....!! YOU....!! YOU....!! okay I'm telling myself this, not anyone else. 

If you want to talk, just go down and find your pets, I think they can be your best listeners. If you want to cry, please jump into the pool, so that people cannot see your tears. If you want to hug something, just buy a bigger soft toy/bolster. If you want to scream, make sure you are in a soundproof room. All I wanna say is please don't ever disturb others with your problems, you will seem really annoying, or maybe not you is just me.

Perhaps I should pretend to be blind, deaf, mute when is necessary, and just focus on what's more important for the time being and not anything else.